Circles

It never entered my mind that we’d get a Mac album since he passed away, if the thought ever tried to form, I would brush it off. I was also afraid that his estate would be like others and spew out whatever whenever. When it was announced that Circles was about to be released and found out he was working on it before his passing, I felt better about it coming out. The whole thing felt unreal to me, the fact that it was a companion album to Swimming, and how it would be released the following week from the announcement. I was nervous.

When the Good News video came out, I cried my eyes out while I noticed all the stuff from the past popped up and little things that made Mac who he was. I believe I still have the photo of me crying that was sent to my friend, Desiree. Those lyrics still sit with me and pop up when I feel blue. That’s On Me’s little part (2:05) was replayed so many times, the whole song still never fails to make me cry, and yes, I wrote this with tears in my eyes. Once A Day is a beautiful ending, I vividly remember my first listen and how I cried when the song finished, it truly felt like the end to me, like that’s all we would ever get. The bonus songs are beautiful and I’m delighted they were shared with us. Right reminded me of someone I had recently stopped talking to and a few years later, when we broke up. Floating felt like it came directly from the sky above, as a message from Mac that he was good where he was and still making music, I mean, nothing could ever stop his talent. This album showcases that Mac is the best version of an artist even if he wasn’t with us anymore.

Circles helped me finally accept that he was gone and to be able not to feel so heartbroken. It felt nice to move on from the sadness. My heart could suddenly be aware of the loss and be okay with it. He was still with us in a way. It also made life in quarantine feel less alone, it’s been a pleasure to have this album by my side when desperately needed. These songs were so relieving, they helped me through a few hardships and I am glad that we have so many incredible albums to remember him and continue to love him and his artistry and be there when it’s most needed.

Every single song on here is mind-blowing and extremely lovely. For me, it’s a zero-skip album, it’s a 10, and when you listen to one song you end up listening to the rest of the album. Perfect for any emotion and situation, a true lyricist! I’m filled with gratitude for Jon Brion for finishing this for Mac, his interview with Zane Lowe is a nice watch too. I’m appreciative of his family/estate for continuing to release albums for his fans throughout the years and making certain projects available to stream so everyone can listen and enjoy (go stream Balloonerism!)

I’d be a very sad person who wouldn’t know how to accept things if this didn’t exist. I’m pretty sure it would’ve taken me longer to move on from Mac’s death. And I’m sure I’m not the only one who thinks that. Happy 5th Anniversary to an album so special and remarkable.

All my love always and forever to Circles and especially to, Mac Miller.